From Facebook: "I declare I will choose FAITH over fear! I will meditate on what is positive and what is good about my situation. I will use my energy not to worry but to believe. Fear has no part in my life. I will not dwell on negative, discouraging thoughts. My mind is set on what God says about me. I know His plan for me is success, victory and abundance. This is my declaration."
What a day. I want to release the stress by talking about the mindless mutterings, anger and disruption of mental illness. I want to state my frustration on my making a plan for the future that will not destroy us-it seems an impossible task. I want to express my frustrations on not being able to have a conversation without disruptions, incomplete thoughts and non-understanding.
I want things to be different. I want to be understood. I don't want to be yelled at. I want love.
I still focus on the positive. Today I thanked God for my dependable car so that I don't worry about breaking down, for being able to merge into traffic, for the house being clean, for the chance to put up laundry and keep busy, for a very good doctor's appointment where I learned I was anemic (an easy fix to the tiredness I've felt), for chocolate almonds, for good conversations, for my paycheck, for an easy tutoring session with Viviana.
I only have one part of my life that is hard and it doesn't consume me. I won't let it. Nevertheless, I do have to make decisions, and have a plan of action.
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